Learningtryin

I get so restless when I am not in the process of learning something. It isn't even so much as "doing" as actually "learning". Of course, all that research I did into happiness correlates well with this sentiment, that for true happiness, we must always be growing, which to me, has always meant "learning" but that is a rather bookish way to say it I guess.

Just as Photoshop became a wild obsession for me until late in the night during university for a short stint, when I was supposed to be sleeping my brain into passing Stats exams, I've lately had a few similar obsessions. The problem is what happens in between these things. Will explain in a sec.

Lately I became slightly addicted to the online software floorplanner.com. It's a European designed software that allows you to create floorplans, then design everything to fit your furniture, or a kitchen of your dreams. When I see a house listing I like, I must (MUST!), sit down no matter how long it takes, and "draw" the floorplan in this program until I'm satisfied that I can feel the house before I have walked in the door. Anyways, I'm telling you all this because in fact I LOVE being that obsessive about something. Mastering a tiny piece of the universe. The downside is that we find a house, or we don't move, and I have no reason to keep using it, or I simply have mastered the skill. SO! Lately, feeling like house hunting is a purposeless pursuit, I am so restless for my next new skill. What will it be! I feel I came and went with yoga for many years in this way, having to teach it, learn it, master it until I ruined every single yoga class afterwards, inwardly scoffing at teachers who were not to the level I wanted. Sigh...if *this* is happiness....you get the point....it's not working.
Meanwhile, I'll indulge you. Here is a house I absolutely love.

After mapping it out on floorplanner, I realize I can't have this house! It has way too many windows that I won't have, and a floorplan that I also won't have. But mapping it out helped me to avoid a huge pitfall. It's like saying you want Cameron Diaz' haircut, when you really want her cheekbones. You gots to know these things!