13

Well of course, today is 13, explaining the absolute crap feeling I have today.
I'm so stressed about my courses at SAIT that I'm taking it out on J, and I feel awful for that. I have to remind myself why I'm taking these courses, and it's hard to drop out when I've told everyone what I'm doing. I want to do it, but the teaching and format is really excruciating for me.
I haven't been able to keep my stress levels low...buying a car causes pressure to build to take on all thes yoga classes, but the compelling feeling I should take them in case I need a sub! So tonight I'm teaching 2 in a row again, and I've been freaking out about it after the last time. It's just too hot, it makes my organs feel cooked.
I have kept up jogging, but not the little stuff, like stretching, reading, getting to bed on time, and most importantly, our diet is shit. I just have no appetite for anything, so by the time I feel hungry, we're in a situation that makes it seemingly impossible to cook a healthy meal (too late, stores busy, and of course, fridge broken as of lately!).

I think I should recommit to living stress-free, but today i feel hopeless and just want the day to be over. At least I scheduled a date with a (reliable) friend for this week when J is gone. I had 2 friends completely ditch me lately so I'm happy to see this old friend again, who I've always been able to depend on!