Your daddy!

Sometimes I accuse J of being selfish, or not caring for me.
This morning I realized the error of my ways as I was blowdrying my hair (of course, this is the best place to have meaningful epiphanies, second only to the bathtub and just ahead of the toilet).
1. Your pops sets our alarm to 6:30am everynight when he gets into bed, even though it is closer to me. I used to think it was because he was more paranoid about it being on, but I know he enjoys doing this for me.
2. When our alarm goes off, he gets up. He doesn't have to get up until 7:15am, but he gets up early with me.
3. He does the dishes from the night before.
4. He makes my lunch.
5. He puts my toast in.

Then, if he has time, he pulls his guitar down and plays for a little bit, until I invariably say "J...can you grab me this thing or that thing?" and he always does that for me.

Then we bike or walk to work together. I try and hold the door for his bike, as a tiny token for him. He used to steal a kiss from me as I went into the library, but the doormen are so creepy, i got him to stop this habit.

Then he emails me "cafe?" or calls me at 9:30am to walk to the coffee shop between our work places.
6. He buys me a cafe, or muffin. He gets himself the cheap black coffee, I get the overpriced lattes.
7. At lunch we'll jog together, eat together, or if I'm teaching yoga, he will wait outside the building, just to walk back to the library with me or down the block.


Every single day. Love him

Making me Sick!

Oh baby!

I never imagined I would be affected by any of those pregnancy symptoms involving morning sickness, but alas, for the past 3 weeks baby, we have had some serious heartburn/nausea. Your momma is strong though, to a fault usually, and I have not thrown up once (cross my fingers). There's nothing wrong with it I guess, but your mom hates throwing up perhaps more than anything!

So i haven't written for a long time because I usually write at night before bed, but the nausea has made me a big grumpy scaredy-cat at nights, watching LOST with your dad on the internet. We pretend like we don't watch tv, but we make up for it by watching "free" tv online. Maybe by the time you're old enough to watch tv, all of this will have changed. But soon enough we'll be 'normal' people, with real cable, when we move from our tiny little apartment into our new condo. I hope you like it there, but I'm sure you won't even notice it. By the time you're old enough to care, I will bet we are living in a house so you can run around with mom in the backyard.

I see photos of my friends' kids and I really hope you are a girl, because they have girls and it looks so fun to have a playmate for mom! But on the other hand, secretely I think I want you to be a boy, because boys are tough, and seem to be more adaptable to strange situations (like no cable tv haha). Either way, the suspense is killing me and it's only 11 weeks. You and me still have 29 more weeks to go, hola!

Bye kiddo, I'm thinking about you today:)

Nausea Nausea

Today might have been the worst daytime nausea so far, usually it's been at night before bed. It definitely makes one wonder why the f would I want to do this? Or more so, where did I get the idea pregnancy was going to be fun? Guess cuz no one mentions they are prego until after this awful period passes.

Ran into Megan the old hairdresser today. She's ready to pop, and I don't say that often. It was awful seeing her! It actually made me nauseas.

Anyways, grateful for the homes in Hillhurst, the beautiful trees and gorgeous flowers. I've been walking more and more up and down those streets, fighting the nausea, taking slow steps. It helps, and I love it.

Week 7

Oh, indigestion, what a treat. I seem to be back on a Bad Gall Bladder Diet. Stay away from spice, fat, heavy carbs, so mainly delicious things. I woke up still feeling gross, and wow, was I tired and grumpy. But in the shower, I felt so hopeful, I even came up with a gameplan. Maybe I could look for a job, and by the 6 Month old stage, we could jet to some small place in BC; and Justin could take over paternity leave for the next 6 months (or forever?).

Things kept going good, for a Monday. Toast tasted great, a london fog from insomnia, but then Paul talked to me and things went downhill. But I still feel better having some inspiration.

On the way home from work I was such a bitch, but even after that, J massaged my feet, my body, then ran out for Chinese as requested (in the cold rain). I am so grateful for a husband who tolerates my bad moods, who knows I am more than a bad mood.

Oh, I'm also grateful to receive a beautiful card from Steph and Roger in the mail. It made me desire stationary and to write back!

Great day:)

Grumpy to Yay!

Woke up so grumpy and heartburn-y. But in the shower I came up with a marvellous, and perhaps undoable plan, but I needed some light at the end of the tunnel. I called J in to the bathroom, a consistent meeting place for us to discuss the future, me in the shower, him looking at me by standing on the toilet.
but then I realized I wanted to wait until Toast time to discuss. So I got my toast, corn millet bread with fake butter and blueberry organic jam. Then I told him. We would have the baby, then I would diligently search for jobs in BC, and at 6 months we would move to a small town in BC (affordable because it's small right?) and J would tend the baby while I worked in our new lives in BC. Yep.

J reminded me over toast about our first date, running to Safeway to pick up jam for me to have toast. I was a girl who loved her jam on toast. Still am. Probably because it makes me so happy. And not heartburn-y.

Relationships

What friends do you have?
My mom and my mom-in-law....who else? It's up to me to build these relationships.

5 weeks 4 days

We've been watching "Dexter" online...it's a show about a serial killer who only kills bad guys. It's gruesome, not sure if this helps me. Weird contrast to "baby-growing"...hmm, that makes me sound like a planetarium doesn't it?

I'm stressed about school, not having time for me right now. I know this will pass, but I hate disappointing my partners. I forgot the papers to phone for my ultrasound and blood work to check this bleeding thingy. Not sure how I can do it tomorrow without a cell and being at school all freaking night.

We were going to head for a backpacking trip this weekend, but with school, and Justin wanting a relaxing weekend, we decided against it. The mosquito forecast played a large part as well in not going. I feel bad I don't have time for Justin on his birthday weekend, but this whole summer seems like a bust for us.

Justin is getting too noisy listening to me type the mysterious blog. Should return my focus to the serial killer show now;)